Story cut short. So I was selected as a leader, but I had a talk with my mum before, and she does not supportive. One school to another, she just rejects. I rebelled once, I had fun once, but is it enough alr? Through th process of selecting as an exco, how much quarrels I had to endure, how much I saw her having no confidence in my studies and I, how much I cried, and how much I prayed, just fr that experience, that hardship, that special bond with others. Do I still have to endure them anymore? Does history have to repeat itself again? Do I have th same determination and endurance to those insults? I feel so weak. A nice talk with her will not help. I feel that I should tell him, because he’s easier to talk to. But. What if she tells her? And this is going to be in my sgc, she’ll definitely read it by th end of year 2. However can I even survive year 1 when ptm comes? I’m afraid. Oh why?

Took my grade8 pieces from teacher. And while on th way back home , I was thinking that in th past, I had at least an hour or two to practice my piano, but I didnt cherish it. I wasted that time away. Now even if I wanted to, I dont even have th time. And since I’ve been out of touch fr so long, I have to start from th basics again. This wastes even more time.. But I dont feel regretted that I didn’t practice enough. I felt I practice enough, but I didn’t put in my heart and soul in. Prolly that’s why I couldn’t pass. I practiced because I need to, not th joy but need. Well just hope that this time round it would be my last ..